He Did Not Die Alone

Monique pulled a folded hospital chart out of her purse and stood up from the picnic bench, and her hands were shaking.

Darnell, she said to her husband, you said somebody has to push the beds. Let me tell you what your nephew did at one of them.

In March, Monique said, there was an old man on our floor with no family, nobody coming, and he was frightened and he was dying. An orderly stayed hours past the end of his shift and sat with that man and held his hand all night so he would not be alone, and he was the one who noticed the breathing stop and called the code. I am a doctor at that hospital. I watched him do it. Darnell, that old man was my father. The father I was too proud and too late to make peace with. Your nephew gave my daddy the one thing I could not. He made sure he did not die alone.

The yard had gone silent. Andre had set down the tongs.

Darnell bragged that his tellers make more and get to sit down, and the nephew he mocked sat all night with Darnells own father-in-law so a dying man would not be afraid.

Monique said she had carried that chart in her purse for months, not knowing how to say it, until her husband stood up on the porch and belittled the very man who had held her fathers hand at the end.

I am Andres mama. He flipped a rib and said happy Juneteenth, Uncle Darnell, and took the joke, because a man who sits with the dying does not need a bank manager to tell him what he is worth. Darnell looked at his wife, and at the nephew he had mocked at every holiday, and he put down his Kool-Aid and he wept.

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