Behind The Tub Panel

I set my wrench down real slow, because when I pulled that blind panel and put my flashlight into the space chased out behind it, there was a childs cigar box sitting on a little shelf somebody had built with careful young hands a long time ago.

Inside were a boys treasures. A pocketknife. A handful of baseball cards. A cheap tin whistle. A folded page of notebook paper. And when I unfolded that page, it was a note printed in a childs shaky pencil, and it near broke me to read it.

The young couple who hired me read it too, and the wife had to sit down on the edge of the tub. The note said, if anybody finds this I ran away because of him, I am not bad I just could not stay, and it was signed only with a first name and a date from over thirty years ago.

Some frightened boy, decades ago, had hidden his most precious things and a note behind a bathtub before he fled a house that was hurting him, tucking his whole small life into the one place he knew nobody would ever look, and then he vanished into the years.

We did not let it lie. The husband took that first name and that date to the county, and with some patience they found him, a man past forty now, living three hours away, who had indeed run from that house as a boy and grown up in the foster system and made, against all odds, a decent life.

He drove back to a house he had sworn he would never see again. But he did not come for the house. He came for the cigar box, the pocketknife his real grandfather gave him before everything went bad, the one good thing from a childhood he had spent thirty years trying to forget.

He stood in that bathroom, a grown man, holding a boys tin whistle, and he cried the way you cry when a piece of you that you thought was lost forever is handed back. He told the young couple that hiding that box was the last thing he did before he climbed out the window, that he always wondered if it was still there, and that somehow knowing it survived made the boy he was feel less alone across all those years.

He took the box. He left the note, though, sealed back behind the panel, because, he said, that boy earned the right to have his words stay in the house that finally has kind people in it. Twenty years chasing tub leaks, and I never found more than mildew. I did not know a wall could keep a childs courage safe for thirty years. It can.

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