You Sure You Want That

What I saw inside that parcel was a stack of handwritten sheet music, a faded photograph, and a letter addressed to no one in particular. The photograph showed the woman who had played that organ for fifty years, much younger than I expected, sitting on a church stage with her hands on the keys. The letter was folded so many times the edges were soft. I opened it right there at my workbench. The first line said, “If these songs are found, then maybe they won’t disappear with me.”

I had to sit down after that. The parcel contained dozens of original compositions she had written over her lifetime. Not hymns copied from books, but music of her own. Every piece had notes scribbled in the margins about when she wrote it and why. One was for the birth of her first child. Another after her husband came home safely from Vietnam. One was written during a winter when money was tight and she was afraid they might lose the farm. The music wasn’t hidden because it was scandalous. It was hidden because she never thought anyone would care enough to listen. In the letter she wrote, “I played for everybody else. These were the songs I kept for myself.”

The next week, after restoring enough of the organ to make it playable, I sat down and worked through one of the simpler pieces. The melody filled the workshop, soft and beautiful. It felt strange knowing those notes had sat silent for decades. I couldn’t stop thinking about the nephew who’d sold me the organ, so I called him and told him what I’d found.

A few days later he came by with his daughter. We sat together while I played several of the songs. More than once he wiped his eyes without saying anything. As evening settled outside, that old organ finally made music again, and for the first time in years, his aunt’s songs weren’t hidden in the dark behind the bellows. They were filling the room.

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